I Wish I Could Forget
Thursday, December 29, 2011 - 11:51 AM
Ya Allah, I am just too weak. I am not strong enough. Ya Allah, give me strength. So that I can keep on with this life. I can be tough actually, but not without him. I wish I can forget what had happened just like how I forget what I have studied, after a few second. But its too hard, man. And I was like, okay this is my sad life. I feel like, empty here. What is going to happen actually?! My life, just being like this till I die? No one cares?! Or the most simple word, dipermainkan? Ya Allah, I have no idea with this.
I dont want to take it as a big deal. I dont want to take it as a big problem. I dont to take it as a big matter. But it seems like so impossible. 'Let things be gone by be gone', oh damn, what the hardest phrases man? When we love someone very much, again I said, very much, it becomes easily for us to forgive them because we still want them in our life. Even its the most difficult thing that we have done. Tapi manusia kan, kadang-2 kata lain, tapi buat lain. So Adrin rasa, tak perlu nak berjanji-janji sangat. Kadang-2, janji itu makan diri sendiri. Jangan janji sesuatu yang mungkin kita tak boleh nak lakukan. Daripada kita terus membiarkan orang menaruh harapan, lebih baik kecewakan dia pada awalnya. Because when thing left for so long, the story gonna be changed and then everythings may spoil.
Haha, Adrin, you are stupid ACTUALLY. But he is just like my everything. Adrin dah maafkan dia, but bila ingat semula ayat-2 nya, lemah longlai jadinya. Kaki lemah rebah ke lantai, lidah kelu tak terkata, mata terbuka berair. Hati di dalam ni bagai nak menjerit-jerit ingin melepaskan rasa sedih itu, tapi Adrin tahu, memang tak akan ada sesiapa yang faham. Hehhh, rasa macam nak ambil pisau, kelar-2 pergelangan tangan ni. Bukan rasa, memang dah buat dah pun. Tak puas, sebab rasanya, he still dont understand me how much he mean to me! I feel like already thousands time I told him that, sayang Adrin dekat dia, hanya Allah SWT sahaja yang tahu. Dia cakap, 'Yela saya faham'. Tak pun sebenarnya. Hidup sekarang ini, kalau tak ada bukti, memang susah untuk mengiyekan benda yang sebenar. Tak apa Adrin. Allah SWT tahu semuanya.
I have to stand for it and you have forgave him. So its the end of the story, yeah? # Even ayat tu susah sangat nak lesap dari kepala dan minda Adrin yang mungkin selepas ini bercelaru pemikirannya. Pasrah Adrin. # He just too mean for me, teramat sayangkan dia sampai macam ini pula jadinya. Ya Allah, bagi Adrin kekuatan dan ketabahan untuk menghadapi semua ini. InsyaAllah Adrin boleh. Walaupun kadang-2 Adrin rasa ia adalah mustahil untuk dia memahami Adrin. Atau dengan ayat kasarnya, 'Well guys kan, senang je hidup dia orang'. :D
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I Wish I Could ForgetThursday, December 29, 2011 - 11:51 AM
Ya Allah, I am just too weak. I am not strong enough. Ya Allah, give me strength. So that I can keep on with this life. I can be tough actually, but not without him. I wish I can forget what had happened just like how I forget what I have studied, after a few second. But its too hard, man. And I was like, okay this is my sad life. I feel like, empty here. What is going to happen actually?! My life, just being like this till I die? No one cares?! Or the most simple word, dipermainkan? Ya Allah, I have no idea with this.I dont want to take it as a big deal. I dont want to take it as a big problem. I dont to take it as a big matter. But it seems like so impossible. 'Let things be gone by be gone', oh damn, what the hardest phrases man? When we love someone very much, again I said, very much, it becomes easily for us to forgive them because we still want them in our life. Even its the most difficult thing that we have done. Tapi manusia kan, kadang-2 kata lain, tapi buat lain. So Adrin rasa, tak perlu nak berjanji-janji sangat. Kadang-2, janji itu makan diri sendiri. Jangan janji sesuatu yang mungkin kita tak boleh nak lakukan. Daripada kita terus membiarkan orang menaruh harapan, lebih baik kecewakan dia pada awalnya. Because when thing left for so long, the story gonna be changed and then everythings may spoil.Haha, Adrin, you are stupid ACTUALLY. But he is just like my everything. Adrin dah maafkan dia, but bila ingat semula ayat-2 nya, lemah longlai jadinya. Kaki lemah rebah ke lantai, lidah kelu tak terkata, mata terbuka berair. Hati di dalam ni bagai nak menjerit-jerit ingin melepaskan rasa sedih itu, tapi Adrin tahu, memang tak akan ada sesiapa yang faham. Hehhh, rasa macam nak ambil pisau, kelar-2 pergelangan tangan ni. Bukan rasa, memang dah buat dah pun. Tak puas, sebab rasanya, he still dont understand me how much he mean to me! I feel like already thousands time I told him that, sayang Adrin dekat dia, hanya Allah SWT sahaja yang tahu. Dia cakap, 'Yela saya faham'. Tak pun sebenarnya. Hidup sekarang ini, kalau tak ada bukti, memang susah untuk mengiyekan benda yang sebenar. Tak apa Adrin. Allah SWT tahu semuanya.I have to stand for it and you have forgave him. So its the end of the story, yeah? # Even ayat tu susah sangat nak lesap dari kepala dan minda Adrin yang mungkin selepas ini bercelaru pemikirannya. Pasrah Adrin. # He just too mean for me, teramat sayangkan dia sampai macam ini pula jadinya. Ya Allah, bagi Adrin kekuatan dan ketabahan untuk menghadapi semua ini. InsyaAllah Adrin boleh. Walaupun kadang-2 Adrin rasa ia adalah mustahil untuk dia memahami Adrin. Atau dengan ayat kasarnya, 'Well guys kan, senang je hidup dia orang'. :D
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